Tuesday, January 24
hi.today didn't start well, at all.couldn't sleep last night. tried and tried, and finally slept at 12. woke up at 2 again, for no rhyme or reason, and couldn't sleep til 3.well, i'll just blame my incessant stupidity. for every tiny thing that happens. it's just a fucking shitty day. and it's my fault that i fucked it up.gonna shop by myself after school. go home, do my work, and bury myself alive in all this shit.nothing can make me happy now. not waffles, not music, not friends, not anything. but you.rahhhhhhh. just blame me okay. it's always my fault anyway. i'll never be able to get anything right or sort anything out. ever."i tried to be perfect,
but nothing was
worth it.
i don't believe it makes me
real.
i thought it'd be easy,
but
no one believes me.
i meant all the things i
said."
i'll just bury myself alive.
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