Sunday, January 29

Hey.

Chinese New Year's Eve didn't go well at all.

I was home, excited and ready for Yu Sheng. If I didn't get to go to my cousin's place, well, at least make do with my family. I helped out setting the table and all, we were all ready. (No Yu Sheng! :( )Everyone, but my dad. He refused to eat with us, for some reason or another. My Mum, my sister and I talked tons, but then it was quite sad... He just sat and watched tv.

My mum told me today that he didn't want to go to my uncle's house, cause he still bears a grudge. I don't know what though.

I had nothing to do after dinner. I went online, surfed the net, listened to music, then finally gave up. I put on RCC's CD and had my personal Praise & Worship session by myself. I cried thinking about my family. It's hard, it really is. Not just my extended family, but my family as well. That's how I spent my New Year's Eve. No cousins, no relatives, no nothing.

Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, I woke up to my Dad. Guess what he did? He fucking kicked the bed and screamed at me. I yelled back "If you want me to wake up, then don't kick the bed." He screamed "That's how you should wake up." I was pissed and slept for 15 minutes more.

Got ready and all, curled my sister's hair while waiting for Mum, the usual every year. Dad kept rushing us. In the end, we were ready and he decided to not go. I wanted to scream at him for being a pussy and to stop sulking.

Finally got to my Great Step Grandma's house at Bedok North. I saw my cousins for 5 minutes, and they left. That's so sad. I wanted to talk to them, really. They grew so much. The next cousin is even taller than me already. But no, they left. Along with my Grandma.

Had a little curry chicken at my Lao Ma's house. Sat there in silence when they were comparing me with my sisters. "Wah, Ying Ying is so big sized ah. Her nose very high. Why her eyes so small one ?"

Grouch.

We left a while after that, thank God, and went for lunch at my town club. Laughed a lot with my sister and Mum over sweet Char Kway Teow, Lobster Bisque and Hor Fun. Proceeded to my maternal auntie's house after that. Spent like, 2, 3 hours worth comparing me and my sisters, AGAIN. Bleh.

Mum took us to Carrefour, shopped, then had Carbonara at Pasta Mania. And now I'm home.

It's been a fucking shitty new year, but I'm trying not to let it get to me.

Gonna bake/skate/swim/curl hair with my sisters tomorrow. I hope this new year will get better.

:)

Happy Chinese New Year guys.
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