Monday, April 24

I'm freaking bored in class right now.

I wanted to really work today, but.. Didn't get the chance to.

Year 2 isn't easy, at all. It's challenging and wants you to create stuff in a click. But yet it's so fun. The world is your clipboard, go ahead and do whatever you want.

All this 830-4 everyday stuff is so draining. And I still have that dumb store meeting later. I know it's for the Coffee Master and Learning Coach and all, but the, somehow, a part of me thinks that I can't do it, that I'm not good enough for this.

Right now I'm just listening to my songs, giving myself a little 'me' time. This year is gonna be tough. So much to do, so little time. I'm a little overwhelmed by it all. Somehow I can't believe I've come this far. From that geeky little IJ girl who never felt like she had a place, to the bigger, but still geeky and weird IJ girl in secondary school.

I've gone through so many phases in life. From being out of place, not fitting in, to really, really feeling happy and accepted, and then loosing it all again.

It's amazing don't you think? That I still have everything together.

Maybe it's better that I'm being overwhelmed, so that everything doesn't set in and I don't have to face the facts, like that my family's torn, like that hate/angry/disgusted/disappointed/sad/lonely relationship I have with people who used to matter.

I'm taking Yoga this Tuesday night! That's something to look forward to. Loosing weight. I heard Yoga soothes the mind. Hopefully it'll help me be more at peace with myself, and learn to accept that God put me through this for a reason.

Since school's started, I hope I'll return to church. Everything else might be perfect, but sometimes there's just that hole there, and that space can only be filled by God. :)

After all this shit I've been through, hey, maybe I'm a stronger person than I thought I was. Dad's always said I was weak cause I cry too easily. Me thinks I'm just too soft hearted. I'm just nice, but I can be strong. It's just hidden underneath it all.

I'm getting my hair dyed again on Wednesday. Colouring it Coral Pink! Darling's colour. I wonder how it'll turn out. I think Pure Purple Power is great on me. :) But y'know, just, for a change.

Darling's out with Saph now. The bitches are still busy doing their problems and all. Yawn.

Maybe I shall go blog surf.

Hooray! Blogging therapy.

:) See ya.
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